How I know my anxiety affects my life:

  • Anytime I’m in a situation where I’m surrounded by strangers, I become completely aware of every aspect of my being. The position of my eyes, the way I walk, every physical thing about me becomes a worry that something is wrong and people are noticing it.
  • I always believe people are laughing at/about me. Even when complete strangers are having a private conversation and laughing, there’s a good chance I’ll be completely paranoid it’s about me.
  • I can only smoke cigarettes while driving because at red lights I think people are thinking that I smoke my cigarettes weird or that my face looks weird when I exhale the smoke. 
  • I sometimes think my doctor prescribes me a placebo in place of actual zoloft.